"Forgetting Her Faith (Deep In Her Eyes)"
Pencil, pen and ink, sharpie, marker, and oil pastels.

Jan 27th, 2009.



Deep in her eyes.




She realized she’d die one day, she realized that she’d pass
on after her eyelids closed, and the fear of leaving this behind paralyzed her
from the ability to wrap her head around you.




She crashed that day. She came falling down.
The sky turned
black.
Her stars turned black, her moon came crashing down, the broken
fragments still lying on the ground.




She realized she’d die one day, she realized that she’d pass
on after her eyelids closed, and the fear of leaving this behind paralyzed her
from the ability to wrap her head around you.




The mirror didn’t show her who she is or who she was, and
she’s having trouble looking at her own heart.
The makeup still fails to hide
her, like being lost in love.




She crashed that day. Her heart shows the scars, some self-inflicted.

The lungs stopped breathing and her eyes grew still as she dropped her heart to
the ground, it breaking to pieces, and the fragments are still lying on the
ground.



She realized she had been forgetting her faith.
She realized
her eyelids were closed but the heart was still pumping blood to her veins.
She
realized that black and nothingness after this world isn’t possible, she
realized that the world couldn’t have appeared on its own.




This is her journey.
She is searching for you, and I hope
she finds you. She needs you and she needs you to live.
She wants to wrap her
head around you. She is finding her faith, she is finding her way.



She started back up that day.
Her heart still shows the
scars, she still walks with a limp.
The lungs are breathing again, and no one
could ever see this deep into her eyes before.
You held her heart, and made it
whole again.